transiting saturn, the moon, and the art of patience.

saturn is that super rad gas-giant planet with all those rings around it, made up of shattered space rocks. aesthetically, it's got that galactic stoner nerd vibe that makes you "think about the universe". it's a common favorite. however, for everyone who knows anything about astrology, saturn tends to make people cringe when merely uttered. 

as cool as it looks... energetically, it's really tough. 

saturn is father time. authority. hard work. obligation. responsibility. practice. criticism. discomfort. but with enough patience, and an ability to see beyond these things, saturn offers maturity and practical wisdom. 

at first, it feels as though it is restricting whatever planet or house it touches. it pulls away, recedes, pries your fingers open to let go of all the comfort you've been holding on to. clinging to. to let go of the kind of comfort zones that no longer serve you. are no longer benefitting your personal evolution. it's like ripping a pacifier from a baby. it's not easy. but it is necessary to grow. it may be challenging, and often growth is, but it doesn't have to be resisted. there is a way to move with it. and i'm beginning to learn this in my own journey.

for the first time in this life, transiting saturn is conjunct my personal (natal) moon. saturn is slow moving and its orbit lasts about 30 years. as it conjuncts personal planets, it amplifies those parts of yourself in a saturnian way (not the most jolly fun, i know). at 26 years old, this is the first time i am experiencing this particular conjunction (which will last about a year, its intensity ebbing and flowing) and boy, do i feel it. 

the moon represents the feminine. the mother. nurturing. intuition. emotions. menstrual cycles. psychic gifts. our deepest needs and desires. the ways we tend to our self-care.

as saturn passes over the natal moon, it tells the person to dive deep, get introspective, and get real about the ways in which they nurture themselves. all those pacifiers are coming out and it can make that person uncomfortable. there's nothing mental about the moon. it operates purely on emotion (conscious and unconscious). this time might feel weird and you may not be able to really explain how or ground it in a particular event.

everyone may experience this conjunction differently as its highly personal and based on our personal emotional currents. for me, it's telling me to slow down. to be quiet. i'm feeling a bit hard on myself. more private. more sensitive. in fact, i'm extra sensitive to other peoples energy and my own. i'm not sure if that's because of this conjunction or if that's just where i am in my personal evolution. probably both, though, it doesn't really matter. for those interested in the tarot, it's giving me mad high priestess vibes speckled with some hermit moments.

the world most of us live in isn't really built for too much quiet time. it values the state of doing far more than the state of being. but when transiting saturn conjuncts the natal moon, you've got to just beeeeeee. it's time to sit down, be quiet, be still, and most difficult of all, be patient. it's that moment before the first leaves sprout from the ground. the seeds have been planted long ago. you've watered, sunshined, and nurtured your plant. your hopes. your dreams.

if you look at the planets, time moves in circles, in spirals, in intricate patterns. it does not move linearly. the a to b to c movement we've been taught to believe is a silly story we keep telling ourselves. there's a flow between acting and being. 

the art of patience is in that moment, waiting for the first leaves. 

super blue bloody moon lunar eclipse / whatever you feel like calling it

i don't care what you call it. yes. this moon is special. yes. it's a lunar eclipse. yes it's a super moon. yes. it's a blue moon. and yes. it's a red moon. yes, i've been looking forward to it for a few months already ... but you don't need to know the ins-and-outs of what all these terminologies means. and i don't need to explain it to you. there's so many articles circulating the internet right now about what these particular phenomena mean exactly. how this is affecting the collective. feel free to search that. but what i find to be missing from a lot of these articles right now, is a certain shedding of light on how to use these tools for self integration, transformation, and growth. on a personal level. and the moon is an incredible tool for that. 

so what does this mean for you?

here's what's important to know. this particularly special full moon is happening in 11 degrees leo. everybody has 11 degrees leo somewhere in their natal chart (if you don't know what your natal chart looks like, google free natal chart, there's loads of sites that can help you out with that). first and foremost, astrology aside, 11 is a master number. it's probably the most common number that people see synchronistically. 11:11 is a big one. so 11 represents spiritual ascension. when i see it, i know that in some way, i'm connecting to a higher, fuller version of myself. i'm somehow in alignment with my calling and purpose here. the nuances of its meaning will vary from person to person, so i urge you to explore for yourself what this particular number means to you. but numbers aren't an accident. as someone who basically thinks and feels in numbers, i see them as a sort of message from a higher part of myself/source. for me, i see 11 degrees leo as the mastered, most exalted degree of leo. this is leo in his highest, purest form. embodying leo in the most embodied way possible. leo is all about putting yourself on display. all about creative self-expression. taking pleasure in the pleasurable things in life. being brave, being playful, and showing your heart. following your heart. the secret message of 11 degrees leo is: "stop hiding. i don't care if you're naked and bleeding from the womb. go put yourself on display and show yourself to the world. give your gifts away. take pleasure in your talents. there's no time to waste", or something like that. at it's core, it's about being vulnerable and brave.

so find out where 11 degrees leo is in your chart. what house is it in? this house (and it's opposite house, 6 houses away), or this sphere of life is what is being illuminated for you right now. so meditate on this house. (and if you don't know what the houses mean, check out my instagram for my own interpretations, or just google it). think about this house in terms of your life right now.

if 11 degrees leo conjuncts (sits directly on top of, or within 7 degrees of) your AC (rising sign), your sun, your moon, your IC, your MC (midheaven), or your DC in your chart, than this particular lunar fiesta is MAJOR for you.

don't feel the need to memorize all this information. here's what's important to know. forget all the phenomena of this particular moon for just a second. full moons in general are a time where the earth's frequency is raised. and this is why. a full moon represents the coming together of the conscious mind and the subconscious mind. on ordinary days and in ordinary life ,there's usually a pretty big gap between the conscious mind and the subconscious. but during a full moon (when the sun, or consciousness, illuminates the moon, or subconsciousness), there's less of a gap. full moons are an opportune time to connect to spirit (or deeper parts of yourself) because the gap between your ordinary mind and spirit is less than usual.

so with all these lunar eclipse super bloody blue moon orgasms, just know that the gap is even thinner than normal. if you want to connect to spirit, you can quite easily. for me, i like using dreamwork or meditation. but it's different for everyone. all i'm saying is that it's a wonderful time to reap the benefits of going inward. so use this window of time to bridge a connection if that's what you feel like will help you in your life right now. or don't. i mean, do whatever you want.

**this is my first "witchy" blog post so i'm new to this. recently, i've been feeling very called to just give away as much information as possible to as many people as possible. so i feel like this is a good platform to start. i'll be discussing information that has helped me and that maybe other people can benefit from as well, if they so happen to resonate with it.